The Walk We Take

This blog is our walk, our way after the loss of a wonderful son, brother, & friend.
At only 21 years old our beautiful Dayton was killed in a horrible car accident and went home to be with our Heavenly Father.
Dayton Tyler Beard was a young man full of life. His love for family, friends, and our Heavenly Father surpassed many. He loved to fish, hunt, dance, mudding, horseback riding, working on cars and the Army; but his true love was others, he loved being around others, he loved helping others. That was one of the reasons he joined the Army. He had such an amazing effect on everyone he came into contact with, and that would be why he was loved by so many and will be greatly missed. It has been breathtaking as to how many people has told us he was an amazing man and how he has changed their life. This young man made an impact on this world. He was part of the 13th bravo 1st brigade 2-12FA, he loved being a soldier, son, brother, & friend.

Sunday, April 12, 2015

Feb 11, 2015 - 4 months is a very long time.....

Well, I made it through the day. I hate that I don't have control over my emotions any better than this, but I am so very thankful that I have a forgiving and loving Father that will be my strength when I am weak. And you want to know what? I am beginning to realize it is way way easier to just "be weak" and truly "let God" take care of it all. I am determined that I AM going to learn to enjoy life and enjoy just doing what God put me here to do and that is love on everyone I come into contact with. With loosing Dayton the one thing I have come to realize is that life is truly too precious to waste even one second worrying about crap. And yea, you know what? IT'S ALL CRAP! If it is important God will take care of it. God will give me the strength, will, emotion, wisdom, courage, admission and opportunity to do what ever it is He wants me to do. And if it is not something He wants me to do then it won't work out.
Man, I have stumbled and fallen flat on my face so many times thinking "God is telling me to do this" and realizing it wasn't Him, because if it would have been then it would have been a huge success.
I have spent a lot of today thinking about many things. Here are some of them:
1. Boys will be boys and never, I repeat NEVER take them to the store with you. lol only kidding.
2. I have a pretty amazing husband that loves me dearly and would truly do anything to make me happy.
3. God is good all the time and helps us anytime we ask for it.
4. I am a good person, I am not perfect, but I am a good person with a kind loving heart.
5. I am also very blessed, actually beyond revitalization. Because even though I have been crushed with the loss of my sweet Dayton. I am blessed to have 21.5 beautiful years with him, loving him, raising him. I am blessed because God chose me to be his momma. God loved me enough to give him to me even if only for a short while. I am blessed because I have a wonderful, handsome, loving, caring, tender, thoughtful husband that truly loves me. I am not only blessed with Dayton, but I am blessed to have 4 other beautiful boys. God didn't just love me enough to give me Dayton; but enough to give me TJ, Colton, Kyler, and Levi. I am blessed to have a home to live in. I am blessed to have my health. I am blessed to have healthy kids. I am blessed to have had 2 of the most amazing parents to have ever walked this earth. I mean I could go on and on.
* So today for sure when I began to get down about how much I miss my baby I just started reminding myself of how blessed I truly am. How much I have. It's amazing how much that will change how you feel.
Tomorrow will be another day. A new day full of God's mercy. I dare you to spend one hour, just one, counting your blessings. Name them one by one for one full hour.....
Have a joyful and blessed night.
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